Oops, 7 Days. Hey look I don't update on weekends.

Hey New Orleans!

Nothing against Mississippi but my family is down in NOLA and I'm aching right now with worry. I know nobody in New Orleans can read this now but I'm so upset that I haven't heard from my family I'm going on another night of no sleep.

http://endangeredit.xlan.org/story/2005/8/30/185825/694

That I am connected to such a strange place has always been something dear to my heart and I miss being a kid and being around the eatin-est, best partyin' most free-hearted, kind people in the world.

I hope New Orleans comes back. I heart for NOLA and the dearest family I have ever known!

If I was worth anything I drop everything and go down there and help.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 30th, 2005
Best wishes for your family's health and well being, sharkfish.

Philo
Permalink Philo 
August 30th, 2005
God bless and keep your family, and everyone else in New Orleans, sharkfish. And hope you can get some peace and rest, too.
Permalink Jim Rankin 
August 30th, 2005
Thanks Philo.

I just read about this woman who got out:

http://www.plastic.com/comments.html;sid=05/08/29/12532182;mode=thread;cid=179

I'm still crying. Damn damn damn.

You knew this was going to happen but I kept thinking "not in my lifetime."

Damn.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 30th, 2005
I don't know about you guys, but the things I hold dearest are starting to disappear, literally.

New Orleans is a straw in the hay for me.

All I feel is a sense of doom. Ever since just before 9/11, I've seen bits and pieces of the hope I once had just fall away.

I have never had a more awful five year series in my 37.5 years of life. And that's the truth.

The natural and unnatural disasters I'm witnessing have nothing to do with Bush, that I can see, but damn I can't wait until his reign is over.

Sadly, I keep thinking that once we are past this presidency, things will get better. Part hallucination, part perception, part truth, part myth. But this is real for me.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 30th, 2005
http://ask.slashdot.org/comments.pl?sid=160614&cid=13441073

heh. Fucker.

Probably too late by then anyway.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 30th, 2005
Thanks Jim. I'm sad and angry and ready to kill right now.

That's my cue to go to bed.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 30th, 2005
Nero fiddled, Dubya strummed:

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/050830/480/capm10208301856
Permalink The Amazing Biff 
August 30th, 2005
Jesus Christ, he truly is oblivious as to what the whole "leader" thing is about, isn't he?

Philo
Permalink Philo 
August 30th, 2005
> Nero fiddled, Dubya strummed

I'm reminded of http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0068473/

No guesses which one I think is W.
Permalink  
August 31st, 2005
"All I feel is a sense of doom. Ever since just before 9/11, I've seen bits and pieces of the hope I once had just fall away."

Why don't you try picking them up again, bit by bit? I know this sounds like self-help BS, but it worked for me. It's the third time in my life (I'm 36) that I've managed to recover from the kind of feeling you're describing, on my own ("on my own" meaning "with no professional aid"; my friends and family are an important part of that process, even if they sometimes don't realize it).

The worst time I've had was in '91. I has just left the Navy (mandatory year-and-a-half draft), and had no professional skills whatsoever. It was a long year of fruitless job-hunting, until I got into a 1-year "hands-on course" at an accountant's office - meaning, work and training interleaved.

However, it turned out even worse. Since I had no accountancy experience, I ended up being the "messenger" on duty. So, another dead-end. I don't remember ever being as depressed as in August of that year.

But I did manage to fight back, mostly by following the BS recipe: pushing back all the negativity I was feeling, and convincing myself that things will work out OK. And keeping at it it, everyday. And things did turn out OK.

I've had two more relapses (ah, women... :) ), and my way to get back on my feet has always been the same. At some time during this process, I find myself on an optimistic streak, feeling good with myself and with life.

All the best for you, and for those you love.
Permalink Paulo Caetano 
August 31st, 2005
"I has just left the Navy" is actually "I had just left the Navy".

"And keeping at it it" is obviously "And keeping at it"

I reread it 3 times before posting. Why is it that these errors elude us *before* posting, and jump right in front of our eyes *after* we post? <sigh>
Permalink Paulo Caetano 
August 31st, 2005
> Jesus Christ, he truly is oblivious as to what the whole "leader" thing is about, isn't he?

I seem to remember him flapping about the country after 9/11 for 24 hours like a headless chicken-hawk.
Permalink el 
August 31st, 2005
Paulo - thank you for the thoughtful words.

I left the Navy in January 1994. The base I was at in Maine is on the list for closure (Brunswick Naval Air Station).

Yet another part of the past that shaped me is gone.

When I got into the Navy, it was during Bush _I_ but just after Desert Storm. I spent two years in and hated it more than anything but I finally grew up.

I learned how to write software on my own while I was sitting in the barracks and when I got out, I found sales jobs in technology and finally made it to a decent career in professional sales after moving to San Francisco.

I finally got the techie job of my dreams and I had every reason to be happy, even though I took a significant salary cut. I had a real life during the Clinton years even though I made much less than I ever did. My income was stretchable and I was happy with hope.

Now I'm so worried about money, even though my salary is in the decent range, that I live way under my means which means I spend nothing I don't absolutely have to. This is having an impact on my psyche.

I have every reason to be happy. I have had relationship ups and downs, but I'm not including those--that's life.

The doom I speak of is more personal to my own fear that things will never be good again. I'll always have to choose which bills to pay and which to skip. I'll always have a $18,000 student loan (I was a hopeful, bright teen who went to a very expensive private school because back then it was thought that this was the thing to do).

The doom and gloom that my liberal high school teachers and college profs spoke of back in the 80's is all coming true. I have barely put a dent in my student loan, my income is barely keeping up with inflation, and all the things I hold dear are being stomped on by the politicians that people from other Crystal Meth states voted for.

At least folks are not believing the news so much. I talked to some folks yesterday and they didn't realize how bad this hurricane was because the news is so much hype. I think they will understand today.

It isn't even that New Orleans is drowned, so much, as it is yet another reminder that the Baby Boomers lived it up and did nothing to prevent some of these problems WE ARE GOING TO HAVE.

I combine that with the guilt I feel about feeling helpless and insignificant in the face of inevitably worse consequences to come.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 31st, 2005
Sharkfish, read the book "What Happy People Know: How the New Science of Happiness Can Change Your Life for the Better".

Normally I don't like self-help books, but this one actually makes sense and may help you put things in perspective. Good luck!
Permalink Dana 
August 31st, 2005
Dana recommends (positive-outlook book).

I recommend "Daily Afflictions : The Agony of Being Connected to Everything in the Universe."

I'm perfectly serious here. Among many other wonderful bits, there's a lovely part about getting in touch with your inner creative self. Of course, like all creative types, he's a moody, drunken, self-destructive s.o.b. Hooray! I also recommend the bit about "finding that special person who's wrong for you in just the right way."

It's by Andrew Boyd, who (among other things) is damn hilarious.
Permalink Snark 
August 31st, 2005
I'll check those out, Dana and Snark. Thanks.

My mom tells me she has reached everyone but three family members--the poorest of our family stayed in their homes, it seems, so we can't reach them.

Thanks for the support folks. I feel a little bit better.
Permalink sharkfish 
August 31st, 2005

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